i can easily say that i did not expect to see my surroundings get any whiter. the fog is everywhere, you can barely see which direction your going, sometimes you don't know where you are. there is no color except those faint headlights making they're way through the unforgiving whiteness. as you walk people appear out of the fog from other directions, you exchange a friendly smile and disappear again, as the fog swallows them once more.

i hate to type of the soppy tragedies of my own life, but i miss my love, the boy who promised to always be there when i needed him. i left him for five months while i teach in an other country and wonder why i did, because every spare moment of thought i have is spent on him and every nights dream i see his face, and i wonder if i did something terribly wrong.

girls just want to have fun

i'd like to introduce you to tess, the cutest most remarkable chick.

as sweet as my love

jealous rhys?

with my board running controllably down the hill and as the cold wind hits my face i'm starting to remember why i wanted to come here. the air is fresh, the snow lately is soft and if you let go of all the stress in your body it allows your board to throw you around in the most exciting unexpected ways. i rode with an old friend today, and haven't enjoyed snowboarding this much in a very long time.

the candy here is exotic, some tasty and some cause you to stare in disgust. the cold weather is slowly convincing me that docs are not the best boots to be waltzing around the snow in, they are not the warmest. my diet is not healthy and merely consists of the easiest thing i can put together in the shortest period of time.

i took my braids out last night and let my hair go wild. unfortunately no pictures were taken before the snowflakes melted my hair back into its original lifeless style. the bright, over done christmas lights have been put out and christmas music fills the villages air, i already know this will be another christmas i can't wait to be over with, one reason being i will not have to listen to overplayed christmas carols until next year and another reason being it will be closer to me going home, closer to me seeing all those i miss. don't be fooled by what i say, im beginning to love it here, but im incomplete without certain people.

a new home

the new beginning

i'm 17. i've recently moved to canada, as i always told my school mates i would; "as soon as i'm graduated, i'm leaving this country." i'm here with my best friend, and i've left my lover boy behind. it's been a short week with my friend but a long week away from him. which most likely portrays what i have to look forward to over the next 5 months.

i left my home with tears as i watched out of the back window as my love drove his car away from me, when in reality i was driving away from him. and arrived in kelowna airport, over 24 hours later with a tired smile as i saw my best friends beautiful, yet tired face again. I had been indoors most of the trip and felt the change from summer of australia, to the dull winter of canada. From the colors of my surroundings to the shade of white, everywhere i looked.

a week i've been here now, and today was the first day i've felt sunshine on my skin. whilst sitting on the chair lift, heading up the snowy hill, through the fog, carrie and i saw light, and couldn't believe how absolutely stunning it was. you could see all surroundings to a certain point, where it was devoured by the grey mist below. My face is patchy, red where the wind can reach it and pale where it's shielded by my goggles. My hair braided, cause my best friend insisted. my skins loosing its sun-kissed tan and my naturally bleached hair is beginning to darken. i wonder if i'll be recognized when i arrive home.